Not-so-single mom

I have not blogged in forever, but it's a good outlet for me. So here it goes...

Jordan has been working for a new company since June 2014. He traveled a little in October 2014, but nothing too bad. He has been gone since January 3, 2015 and is not expected to return until February 10th. (Insert moaning sounds)

As I dropped him off at the Charlotte airport, I thought, "This can't be too hard." Boy, was I wrong! Since he's been gone, our oven door shattered and it took a week to fix, both kids were ill with a "flu-like" virus (but not the flu), I have had after school meetings and all-day workshops to attend, I also had a major evaluation at work, Mother Nature has screwed me, and currently we are having difficult plumbing problems in our master bathroom shower. I have had to do very manly things like close the flue to the chimney, clean the fireplace, build fires, measure the oil in the oil drum that heats our house, and other daily tasks that Jordan usually takes care of.

All of this compounding on me sent me into an oblivion when Jordan told me that he would be gone longer than expected. I was freaking out wanting to cry all day. I finally searched for some blogs that would tell me about other women who have walked in these shoes. Thankfully, I found a Christian blog. Her advice was stay positive, don't become bitter, support your man, and trust in Jesus. The major part of that that I was missing was trusting in Jesus. I had been trying to do my devotion and I had been attending church, but I wasn't letting Jesus carry me. On Friday afternoon, on my way home, I heard a song by Jeremy Camp called "He Knows." That was it. I was balling on my way home from work. I need to let God fill this loneliness inside of me. Jordan is great, but I should not put so much of my trust and hope in him. WOW! Throughout the day and into the evening, I kept getting reminders that God wants me in fellowship with him and he wants to carry me. I finally surrendered. Then, today's sermon was all about God's grace carrying you through and meeting you where you are.

All of these crazy things are coming together to keep me together!  The craziest of them all was Mulan was on Sophia the First when Maggie was watching Disney Junior today. Mulan, the Chinese Disney Princess, was singing, "You are stronger than you know..." Thank you, Mulan, Sophia, and Disney Junior for letting God use you. I needed that reminder, but now I know that I'm only strong because God is equipping me to get through this with his help.

So, now to get through the next two weeks and two days....